Mothers’ Day & The Gardens at Olive Branch & a loving heart

The worst day of my life I think I’ve had to face; the death of my 16-year-old son Sam who died the victim of a little known synthetic drug, 25i-NBOMe.  It was a year ago, Mothers’ Day 2014.  Still, seeing the ground in upheaval as it is prepared for a foundation for my son’s gravestone, even now, is shocking to my system.  Mothers’ Day 2015 was shocking to my system as well.  It started off with God in my heart at the Sunday church service followed by the one-on-one basketball game that came to be by a challenge from “Uncle Bill” to Sam’s younger brother, my son, Nick.  The game of 21 was played at the outside basketball court now at our church in memory of Sam.  Nick was the declared champion and then we released balloons, mostly red ones, in memory of Sam whom we miss with all our heart.  Next, was a filling meal and casual conversation at one of our favorite Italian restaurants and then home again where we put in place a new basketball sign in our front yard of Sam, forever a Trojan.  At the point that grandpa and grandma, Uncle Bill and Aunt Robin left, it became rather quiet and the dark emotion settled in.  Ed, Nick and I went for a short drive to the cemetery where Sam’s stone will soon be placed but for now there is just a foundation.  By the time Nick parked and I walked to the foundation, I fell upon it with uncontrollable sobs that seemed never-ending.  I don’t know how much time lapsed as I laid there and cried loudly with Nick and Ed standing over me but at some point they each bent down with each their hand and pulled me back up.  I didn’t notice anyone while we were there but apparently a family was nearby visiting a grave site and found Nick on Instagram after.  I don’t know how they knew who we were but the note and their gift found a way to us.  First, the message to Nick via Instagram… “hey… u probably have no idea who I am, but I was just visiting my moms grave with my sister when you and your family showed up.  I wanted to so badly come over and tell you guys that I was praying for you, but always didn’t want to intrude on your alone time.  I know about your brothers story and have watched your moms video on YouTube, and honestly have no words.  I am sincerely sorry for everything you guys are going through.  This is the verse that I always read after my mom passed away… it did me a lot of good and gave me such a peace, so maybe it will do the same for you guys.”  The verse: Isaiah 41:10 “So do not fear for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”  To the beautiful soul that shared this verse with us and whom I didn’t meet on Mothers’ Day, thank you and much love to you.  Your giving heart so positively overwhelms me with hope.  #muchlovetosam