Birthday wishes

I wanted to remember, yet couldn’t forget.  I wanted to forget, yet couldn’t not remember.  Another birthday without him; here on Earth Sam is 20.  My first born on June 26, 2017…

In my heart, the joy of him turning 16 is still with me.  As I saw his best friend this past month and saw how much of a grown man he is becoming, I realize my Sam of 16 would not be 20 now.  

His last birthday we celebrated together; Panama City Beach, Florida. A time and place I’ll remember the rest of my life.  My last vacation.  My last true vacation.  There will be no more rest.  I want to remember how much I love him, yet not forget.  #muchlovetosam