50: Who I am

It is the eve of my 50th birthday.  I just watched what I call “Sam’s video” again: .https://youtu.be/ogei_eqs98k  I miss Sam.  I cry.  I cry a lot.  The tears do not end.  Tomorrow I will turn 5-0.  I have no choice.  My life is but half what I had expected.  Half of what I had wanted.  Half of what will be.  I am half of what I am... I only have love… #muchlovetosam