First off, we all miss you. It's hard when I go to school because I'm reminded of you. Everyone wishes you were still here to brighten our days with the constant smile that you had on your face 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
I know how much you looked up to me and I'm so sorry that I wasn't a good friend who made good decisions and helped my friend make good decisions as well. I wish more than anything that I was that kind of friend because if that were the case, you would still be here. I miss being able to stand up for you and I miss you always having my back. I wish you were still here so I could tell you what I now know about the drug that we took that night.
I learned that we took a fairly new synthetic drug called N-Bomb. After your death, I heard from a few people that N-Bomb is basically poison. I knew you very well Sam. You were becoming more like a brother to me each and every day. And I am positive that if you knew what was in the drug that we had that night, you never would've even thought about taking it. I wish we would've known.
But Sam, you were a guy that sacrificed your own well-being for the betterment of other people in your everyday life. And you still continue to do that to this day. Sam your death will contribute to help save the lives of many others and I know you'd be so proud of that.
I love and miss you Sam...